Discovery and Exploration

It Paints Me and Incoherence

I've written a poem to reflect the grief, complicated heartbreak, and self-discovery struggles that Sam and Kate have both been through:

Everywhere I turn
I see 
or hear
the sound of your voice
the billowing of your dress
your piercing eyes
Telling me 
what I didn't do 
when you were
alive 

Everywhere I go
I imagine 
you calling out 
reaching out 
to me
asking me to stop
or to change
It so real
so close I can 
feel it
feel you
again

Everywhere I run
I can't get rid
of you
I don't know if this is a dream
or a nightmare
or I'm awake and 
imagining things
They're all kind of 
the same now
You're telling me 
I could've done more
I could've changed you
I could've changed me
I could've changed
us

Everywhere I stay
I'm all alone 
these days
in this house
in this hotel room
I don't know where to go
but no matter where
you will follow me
and make sure I 
never stop feeling
guilty

Everywhere I go
I miss you
but I don't know how
to do that
when you keep telling me
it's my fault
You 
leaving me here all alone
haunted
paranoid
disillusioned
unable to paint
unable to think straight
Dare I say
it's your fault?
Dare I wonder
if you did this to me
and not the other way
around?

Everywhere I turn
I see
or hear
the sound of your voice
You keep asking me to
stop
stop everything
give up
Well
when will you
stop

Give up

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